Boston in Cigarettes

BOSTON, SOMERVILLE

August 2004 – October 2011

Once, there was a silver seashell. It lived on a sun-porch in Jamaica Plain. Often, three women would visit the silver seashell. One by one, in pairs, or all together, the women would sit. Sometimes they would talk, but not always. But they would always smoke, and then they would stab the silver seashell with burning cigarettes.

Over and over and over.

The illustrator, who loved to draw the human anatomy (especially teeth), would stab the silver seashell with American Spirits. The graphic designer and the literary critic, apparently more colonial in their tastes, stabbed it with Parliaments. The literary critic was really a graduate student learning to be a literary critic. She was home in the day quite often and terribly nervous. She stabbed the silver seashell most of all.

The seashell was large and its silvery shimmer was spray-painted. The women sat, filling it and filling it with burning cigarettes, all the year round. Even in winter, when noreasters would fill the sun-porch up to the windows with snow.

The illustrator and the graphic designer were natives of Massachusetts and had been friends since college. The literary critic was new. She’d answered their advertisement. In their initial interview, the graphic designer showed the literary critic the sun-porch and said,

“We like to come out here, smoke some butts…”

The literary critic smiled knowingly, though she thought the designer had said “buds,” and she quickly began to calculate the extent to which she cared about living with habitual drug users. In two bats of the eye she decided she didn’t. It was a huge apartment on a lovely, tree-lined cul-du-sac in a hip neighborhood. And there was this sun-porch for smoking things with people who didn’t mind if you did. Later the three women laughed together about quirky regionalisms, like “butts,” “bubbler,” and “packy,” and the zany misunderstandings they often caused.

The literary critic had been smoking cigarettes for over ten years, ever since she was fourteen years old. Back then, it was anything she could get two fingers around, but when she found a gas-station attendant willing to play dumb and take her buck-eighty, she always ordered Marlboro Lights.

“Hard pack.”

In those days, she’d walk her block, find a hiding place, smoke and feel like James Dean. Later, she’d drive around town, smoking and singing. Her favorite song to sing was the Toadies “Possum Kingdom,” and she would always belt along: “Do You Wanna Die?”

The critic, then, was seventeen. The dark humor of this scene did not strike her. At the time.

The car she had at twenty-two was old, and one day its power windows stopped rolling down. So she popped the sun roof and filled her ashtray to overflowing. All future cars, she resolved, would have the manual windows you cranked down yourself.

But that was not Boston in cigarettes. She smoked a lot in those days, but in Boston it seemed she smoked constantly.

It may have happened anyway, but two dramatic events prompted the critic to inhabit the sun porch alongside the silver seashell. She had lived in Jamaica Plain for less than a week when her grandfather passed away. She returned from whence she came. She arrived at her boyfriend’s house.

“I just said goodbye to you,” he said, failing to conceal his irritation.

Back in JP after the funeral, the boyfriend broke up with her over the phone. Both cruel and cliche. There she sat: cell phone, sun porch, cigarettes, seashell. And there she stayed, for hours and hours, smoking and crying. And once school started, on the sun porch she could study while she smoked without ceasing. Away from the sun porch, she entered into the “every fifteen minutes” phase of life.

Once she met the man who would become her husband, she tried to cool it. Fortunately for her, he was a devotee of rock clubs, and he was understanding–a lot of people he knew and liked were smokers. She almost never smoked around him. But once apart, she would return to the sun porch–six in a row for the silver seashell.

As the relationship grew more serious, she tried to cut back. Once engaged, she quit. But her arms and legs grew great rashy flames in protest. (Nicotine tricks the body. It makes the body think that without nicotine, the body can’t survive.)

Once married, the critic’s attention returned to graduate school, comprehensive exams, confusion, frustration. She began to fantasize about fancy clove cigarettes, long, sleek cigarette holders, and abalone-encrusted cigarette cases. She would peruse these fanciful products online. And then one day she bought some clove cigarettes. She started smoking again.

She lived in Somerville near Harvard now. The seashell and sun porch were long gone. She sat on the stoop and just blatantly littered the sidewalk with cigarette ends. She got to know each of her neighbors this way. A near constant presence on the stoop. Or so it must have seemed to them.

But the every-fifteen-minutes phase was long past. From the first clove cigarette, for a period of five years she tried to keep herself to under six cigarettes a day. She took up collage. She played scrabble with herself. She did a lot of online shopping. She learned that Parliaments burn too quick, leaving her wanting more. She learned that American Spirits burn far longer, and she could have just one.

In October, 2011, two days after her husband was laid off and six months before she would defend her dissertation, the critic lit a cigarette as she waited for the bus. And then she made a ludicrous decision.

“Yeah. That’s gonna be the last one.”

And, more or less, it was.

A few years back, a student had complained on a course evaluation that they’d seen her smoking before class. The critic decided to find places to smoke out of sight. Shortly before this particular October day, she’d spent about fifteen minutes looking for a solitary smoking spot. No one’s got time for that.

And then, there was the breathing. Breathing felt gray. She felt gray before, she felt grayer after, and she felt gray during, which really obviated the whole enterprise. It was like she could feel the shit killing her.

So she stopped.

— Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

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Writing Women into Wikipedia: New England Wikimedians Editathon

By Varnent (Own work – based on logo for Wikimedia Chapters) [CC BY-SA 3.0], via Wikimedia Commons

NEW ENGLAND

January 12-19, 2014

And afterward

I headed over to the MIT campus along my usual route, but this time in the dark. Spring semester won’t start for a few more weeks, and MIT people are in the middle of IAP, or “Inter-Activities Period,” a month-long session full of lectures, how-to classes, dance classes, tours, you name it. The only thing I had to do out in the world this day didn’t start until 7 pm. It was raining a little, but I walked the 30 minutes to the Davis T Stop anyway. I wore my duck boots. My umbrella just covered both my backpack and my head. I had to bring my laptop so that I could learn how to edit Wikipedia.

I know, it’s not really all that difficult to edit Wikipedia. Way back in 2008, I demonstrated to my Advanced Writing students that Wikipedia was not a viable source for their research by defacing Wikipedia myself.

“See, class? Any asshole can go in and make changes.”

I am not proud of this, though I’m pretty sure I only did it once.

One of the students in that class — a junior architecture major — politely raised his hand and informed me that what I did was not in the spirit of Wikipedia, that people work hard to get rid of this kind of vandalism, and that sooner or later, Wikipedia would be a viable reference for research. I was surprised to hear that what I’d done was vandalism, and I decided I probably wouldn’t do it again. As for the usefulness and viability of Wikipedia, I saw his point. I conceded that by the time he and his peers were making decisions about what constituted reliable sources, Wikipedia just might be on the list. But in 2008, it was not on that list, and they weren’t allowed to cite it.

But they were allowed — encouraged, even — to use it. Because the wikimedians creating and editing entries are held to the same standards as my students. They must cite reliable sources — sources that pass through some kind of editorial or peer review — if they want their work to stay on the site. Today, in addition to teaching students how to navigate the library and Google in order to yield strong sources, we also teach students to follow the trail of research that wikimedians leave behind, and then use those sources to dig deeper into the existing research and scholarship on their topics.

And that’s great! And generally, in life, if we encounter something we want to know more about — in my case, who succeeded whom in the British monarchy and how that whole thing works, or the defining characteristics of the world of Frank Herbert’s Dune  — we probably go check out Wikipedia. And that’s great, too.

But there’s a problem: if you work hard, contribute to a field, and open doors for people like you who come after, but Wikipedia doesn’t know about you, do you make a sound? Well, yes. But if more and more people turn to Wikipedia to learn about the world around them and its history, then we want to have as much of that work represented as possible. And People of color, lesbian, gay, transgender, and queer people, and women in general, it turns out, are really underrepresented on Wikipedia.

I’d known about these representational issues for a while, though the gender gap has had the highest profile. Amanda Filipacchi’s April, 2013 New York Times Op-Ed, “Wikipedia’s Sexism Toward Female Novelists,” first drew my attention to the gaps of Wikipedia. The recategorization of American novelists who happen to be female, from “American novelists” to “American women novelists,” has since been named “categorygate.” Sue Gardner’s response, “What’s missing from the media discussions of Wikipedia categories and sexism,” (posted to the WikiMedia blog in May of 2013) openly acknowledges the problem, and then clearly conveys how a better understanding of Wikipedia’s core principles can help us better address its gender gap. In “Wikipedia’s gender gap and the complicated reality of systemic gender bias,” Adrianne Wadewitz unpacks and comments on some problematic assumptions that go along with recent efforts to address this gap.

I just happened upon “Writing Women into Wikipedia” by chance, as I scrolled through the IAP listings. This editathon was unlike typical editathons that last only a few hours. This one took place over four nights. We wiki-newbies got solid introductions to the gender gap, Wikipedia’s Five Pillars, and different ways to contribute. And then we worked.

Some things about Wikipedia are easy. It was certainly easy for me to vandalize, back in the day. And Wikipedia encourages newcomers to start with simpler tasks, like fixing typos, and then working their way up to more substantive corrections. But “Writing Women into Wikipedia” is a little different. So many lists of writers, artists, innovators, and scientists (and so on, and so on) lack entries for women who belong there. Copyediting is great, but at this workshop we were encouraged to start new entries. And that was hard.

My “expert” topics are very well covered already. None of the authors featured in my dissertation are missing from Wikipedia. I wanted to help where help was needed, and I didn’t think fixing grammar on George Eliot‘s page was going to do that.

I’ve been very interested in comics, and frequently saddened by the dearth of female comics creators on my reading lists. I decided to start there. Then, I decided to go with British women comics creators, because 1) that keeps all my literary expertise in the same nation, and 2) though there were few American women comics creators listed, there were even fewer from Britain. It didn’t take me long to find my candidate, but it took a very long time to gather enough information from reliable sources to create an article for her.

But, at long last, I did. You know you want to see. Go ahead, click the link. Here she is: Suzy Varty

She’s just a little “stub” right now (that’s “an article containing only one or a few sentences of text that, although providing some useful information, is too short to provide encyclopedic coverage of a subject, and that is capable of expansion.”) Not much, but something to build on. This little stub isn’t mine any more, though I will continue to tend her and help her grow. She belongs to Wikipedia and the world. Hopefully other wikimedians will add and edit her, and help her become a real article. Hopefully the wikimedians will let her stay.

— Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

PS

If you’re interested in becoming a wikimedian, check out New England wikimedians for information about Wikipedia meetups, or just Google wikimedians in your area.

If you’re interested in addressing the gender gap on Wikipedia, here’s an overview of how to get involved, from FemTechNet. And here are some other WikiProjects:

LGBT studies, a wikiproject that aims “to improve Wikipedia’s coverage of lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender (LGBT) and Queer studies topics.”

African diaspora, a wikiproject that “aims to improve all articles related to the cultural contributions of people of African descent all over the world.”

United States/Hispanic and Latino Americans task force, a wikiproject “interested in improving coverage of Hispanic and Latino Americans.”

By London Student Feminists [CC BY-SA 3.0], via Wikimedia Commons

The New Grub Street

George Gissing [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

BOSTON

January 9, 2015

Grub Street

Grub Street doesn’t exist any more — as an actual street — and it hasn’t done so for well over a century. But Grub Street has, and still does, exist as a certain kind of ethos. By the time George Gissing wrote New Grub Street  in the early 1890s, “Grub Street” stood for “hack writing” — in other words, writing for pay, or writing “to get one’s bread,” as they used to say. Gissing’s novel dramatizes the cultural split between “high culture” and “mass culture” as it tells the story of two very different writers: an idealistic novelist who writes for art’s sake, with very little success, and a cynical journalist who writes for money and as the market dictates. It’s a good novel — and a great example of British naturalism — though I like The Odd Women better.

But the New Grub Street I’m talking about isn’t Gissing’s, it’s Boston’s. The ethos of this Grub Street is a little bit grubby, but the writers there don’t look at their craft as either high or mass culture. They know that it’s both.

Back in 1997, Grub Street started very small, meeting at the Brookline Booksmith. It was so small that in ’98 it moved to the founder’s living room in Somerville. In 2000 they diffused to locations in Boston, Brookline, and Cambridge, and in 2002 they centralized again in Somerville. This time they rented space in an old toilet paper factory near Union Square. According to the timeline on their website, without a GPS, they were nearly impossible to find. In 2005, they moved to downtown Boston, and in 2012 they landed in their current location, where I found them.

The Steinway building on the Common.

Swampyank at en.wikipedia [CC BY-SA 3.0], via Wikimedia Commons

It’s pretty glorious. The jewel in the crown, perhaps, is the 2013 announcement that Grub Street is leading an initiative to create an official literary district in Boston. It makes sense — their new location once hosted a reading by Charles Dickens, and apparently Edgar Allan Poe was born where the Steinway building currently stands. (And not far, across the street in the common, you can see the new Edgar Allan Poe statue, commemorating the site.)

What you get from Grub Street is an array of different classes, working in all genres and at all levels, from your first personal essay, to how to get your short-stories published, to how to market your books better. And you get a community to talk with, to help you network, and most important of all, to keep you hacking away at your writing.

This past Friday, I took an all-day, Freelance 101 class, because I’d like to figure out whether it’s possible for me to take all the things I’ve learned over lo these many years in academia and share them with a public audience. And maybe get paid. The Freelance class was incredibly informative and exciting. And realistic. There’s a hell of a lot of work that goes into a freelance career, and less certainty than just about any job I can think of, including that of adjunct instructor. (As an adjunct, you’re at least sure there will be a paycheck throughout the semester!)

“Freelance” used to be two words, and it used to mean “mercenary.” Or “sell sword,” in the parlance of George R.R. Martin. One who will hack away, for pay. And indeed, like the cynical journalist in Gissing’s novel, freelance writers hack away for pay. But if pay was all they were after, any freelance you talk to will tell you they’d have gotten into some other field.

The Grub Street philosophy tells us why any of us chooses writing: “Creative writing explores and documents the human condition and creates meaning in the lives of those who practice it. We believe the act of writing can change both ourselves and the world.” And that ain’t gonna be easy.

Whether you’re writing for art or for pay, either way I say you’re a hack writer. You have to be. Writing doesn’t just happen to you because you have fine aesthetic emotions. Writing takes a tremendous amount of work. But work is too pretty a word for the way I often feel when I’m writing. It really is a matter of hacking away at something — sometimes like I’m hacking away at my own brain.

Like, with an axe.

— Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

#EnoughIsEnough at the Common

BOSTON

December 4, 2014

Boston Common

It’s been a rough few weeks. No kidding.

Before Thanksgiving, we learned that Darren Wilson, the police officer who shot and killed Michael Brown in Ferguson, MO, would not be indicted. Earlier this week, we learned that a grand jury in Staten Island, NY refused to indict an officer caught on video putting a fatal, illegal choke hold on the unarmed Eric Garner.

Police brutality has been on my radar as a scary but all-too common reality out there affecting other people who don’t look like me ever since I was about 12 years old. Put another way, it’s been something I’ve sort of ignored for almost my entire life. I have this sad, self-protective habit: I register such awful news, roll my eyes to heavens to silently decry such ignorance, and then let it all pass on by. But since the Ferguson announcement, I’ve read some things that, slowly but very surely, knocked some sense into me. And with the announcement of no indictment in the Eric Garner case, I can no longer pretend that my quirky little life is insulated from his, or Michael Brown’s, or anyone else’s.

Rather than write about this myself, I thought it better to share the essays and articles that kicked me in the ass. These folks write about what’s been happening far better than I ever could. They are the ones that pulled me out of my warm little nest in Medford and out onto the freezing cold Boston Common to march in protest — for the first time in my life — against these staggeringly common failures of justice.

A friend of mine posted Jenée Desmond-Harris’s column for the Root, “How to Deal with Friends’ Racist Reactions to Ferguson.” Before reading this I had thought it wasn’t my place to make any kind of fuss, because I have absolutely no idea what it feels like to be black in America. I’m often struck with this kind of privilege-awareness-induced aphasia. Between this piece and Mallory Ortberg’s piece for the Toast,  “Eric Garner’s Killer Won’t Be Indicted,” I was quickly convinced to get over myself.

In “Michael Brown Wasn’t a Superhuman Demon,” Slate’s Jamelle Bouie illustrates how Darren Wilson’s testimony draws heavily upon stereotypes that have been used to justify the dehumanization of African Americans for well over a century. Bouie draws clear connections between Wilson’s self-justifications and the deep-seated, cultural fear of black people, which has become integral to the rhetoric surrounding police brutality cases. (After the Eric Garner decision, Bouie published “Shoot First,” his take-down of police departments’ pervasive use of rapid deadly force.)

Finally, please read “The Intellectual Condescension of White Liberals” by Rev. Dr. Victoria Weinstein (published on her blog, PeaceBang.) She is rough on the white liberal. If you are one yourself, try not to take it personally, and instead try to understand: there really isn’t a good reason for what’s been happening. The justice system does not work the same for everyone. This makes me very angry. It is good to be very angry about this. Let’s get angry and do something.

The following are my blurry pictures from #EnoughIsEnough, the action organized by We Are the Ones. This was part of a larger event that marched on Christmas Tree Lightings in cities all over the country (including the really fancy one at Rockefeller Center.) In Boston, everyone met at the Boylston T stop, across from the big Loews movie theater. Over 4,000 protesters then marched up Boylston Street (stopping traffic), across the common (surrounding the Christmas Tree Lighting), and over to the State House. Though I had to go home early, the march went on pretty much all night. Check out FergusonAction.com to sign up for notifications about things you can do in your town.

Big Crowd, little tree

The State House

A Word from Hubway

Hubway saw Tim’s Hubway Adventure through Twitter and shed some light on a few mysteries…Thanks, Hubway! (Also note what I think is Boston Twitter spam from Dara brennan…as soon as I tagged the tweet with Boston, I won some kind of lottery…)

Competition

Ohio, Boston, Somerville, Medford

(behind the blog: This is a short piece that I wrote in April, 2014, as my last semester as an adjunct instructor was coming to a close. I’ve been keeping it safely nestled in my writing files, not sure where it might belong.

When I wrote this, I had a lot of uncertainty in front of me. I did not know it was going to be my last semester adjuncting, but still it was around this time that I decided to stop looking for tenure-track jobs teaching Victorian or British modernist literature, and instead to try to capitalize on a decade of experience teaching writing and communication. And I was going to do that in the Boston area. My resolve to stay here eventually developed into this blog, which I see as a collection of essays about the place I love and why I’m staying here.

What I didn’t want was to make the blog about how I feel about the academic job market. And yet, lurking behind every post, there is a little piece of this essay. I thought I’d pull it out and let some other people see it.)

COMPETITION

The roller rink itself is mythic. It seems to exist only in my memory. It did so even as I approached it on that autumn evening in 1984. At five years old, I was only just gaining consciousness; most experiences were draped in surreality.

It was tall and round. It looked like a huge barrel, but that October evening the crisp air and the yellow lights of the parking lot seemed to shroud it in mist — more like a cauldron. It is the ur-rink, site of first-failure.

Inside, the air was hot and the music was loud. Older children skated past me in a rush, “We’re not gonna take it / Anymore!”

My father sat me down by some lockers to lace me too tight into my little brown skates.

We practiced skating in the kiddie rink. The experience was slippery, but I felt I knew what I was doing. They announced the race for the little kids, and being one I rolled up to the starting line. The voice on the speakers said “Go!” and the herd of elementary school children went. Their roller skates clattered and their arms and elbows pumped hard as they tried to gain momentum. The frenzy surrounded me and my ability left. I fell to the ground, my little fingers splayed upon the shining parquet, nearly crushed. I cried; the race left me behind. I couldn’t skate. Not like they could, any way. I remember crying into my father’s thigh, full of shame. He patted my head and said I was still a little girl; all those kids were bigger and had been skating longer.

There were many skating parties after that, at a different rink. I opted out of future races, even though I loved to feel myself gliding through the air, “is this burning / an eternal flame?” It was better to turn inward as my body did the work. It was better not to compete, because the feeling of having mastered this movement itself was like winning.

Though I’d opted out of roller races for all time, I had to run among my peers in gym class. I was not speedy. With every passing year, in fact, I grew heavier and more firmly anchored to the ground. A moebius strip of failure and shame helped put on the weight, and the troupe of cruel neighbor boys seemed always to know when I’d be outside. Better to stay inside; better to eat and read or watch TV; better to listen to my walkman in my room, “Roam if you want to,” alone. But in gym class, when the whistle blew, the other children rushed by. I wouldn’t fall, but I’d finish the race long after them.

I spent a lifetime learning how to deal with my failure to keep up physically, but I certainly was never dazed upon the parquet when it came to writing. And yet in these last two years I have felt the old roller-skating shame. I don’t know how to do this; I’ve made a mistake, I’m not ready. There must be something wrong with me, if I can be this unprepared after ten years in graduate school. I should have been watching how the game was played, how to choose the right tricks and stick all the landings.

There’s a metaphor that “failed” academics like to use on job-market apologists: Life-Boater. Accordingly, the ship Academia has gone down. Some people got lifeboats. Most, we are told, are drowning. The life-boaters say that life boats aren’t for everyone, and if you’re in the water there must be a reason. As a metaphor, it only goes so far, but I’m often struck by a feeling that arms and elbows are pounding the water all around me in a great din of splashing, all of us struggling to gain purchase somehow, on something.

I quit this panicked competition, and as I swim away to where there’s more room, the shame and frustration sting. But now I’m floating over here. I must believe it is better to turn toward a life outside the frenzy than to let the competition crush me. Because it surely will.

–Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

Tim’s Hubway Adventure

MEDFORD, SOMERVILLE, CAMBRIDGE, BOSTON

and back again

Hubway bike sharing

Tim’s bicycle has a broken axle. He bought it when he was 23, when he was living in New Brunswick, New Jersey back in the spring of 2000. The bicycle before that was purchased the previous summer, in Delaware. It traveled with him–first to Richmond, Virginia, where he stayed for one month in late summer ’99, then to New Brunswick, where he stayed a bit longer, for basically the whole ’99-2000 school year. Somewhere in there, Tim left that bicycle under a tree in the side yard of the blue split-level colonial where he lived with five other twenty-somethings. The bike got stolen. He replaced it with a black Jamis, which he has ridden ever since — until the day he crossed the railroad tracks near Kendall Square in Cambridge and busted the axle.

Though Tim is a freelance editor today, he used to be a math teacher, and before that he worked raising money for environmental causes. After graduating from college, Tim took a job as canvas director for the Fund for Public Interest Research. He would travel from town to town setting up canvas offices and deploying teams of college students to knock on doors, raising money for things like Sierra Club, Defenders of Wildlife and Human Rights Campaign. He worked for the Massachusetts bottle bill his first summer (a new version of which just failed…again). He had a big win the year his bike was stolen: he helped protect about 90 million acres of national forests from the logging industry.

Tim is tall and thin with light, wavy brown hair, big blue eyes, and a smile that digs deep into both cheeks. Though he looked younger than most of the college students on his team, for as long as he was in town he was an effective manager, running things with an air of good humored sincerity.

His work involved a lot of hustle and bustle, but he also spent a lot of time alone. When the kids were canvasing, Tim would canvas too, walking miles all alone, knocking on doors, sometimes getting donations, sometimes not. On these jobs, there was plenty of time to think — he would, for example, theorize the correlation between the outward appearance of a house, the likelihood of donation, and if they gave, how much. He once told me about how on his rare nights off in West Hartford, he’d stop at a nearby used bookstore, buy a paperback and read the whole thing in a night. This reminded me of the time he fell asleep under a tree near Spy Pond (Arlington, MA) while reading Kafka’s short stories. A solitary but contented man.

On our second date, in the spring of 2005, I saw him crumple his water bottle up into a little ball and stick it in his pocket to recycle at home. I thought that was so weird, I fell in love a little. I soon learned, Tim does not just throw things away. His bike is a prime example. A couple of years ago, when we brought our bikes in for their annual April checkup, Tim and the bike guy shared a little moment, laughing at how long the old Jamis had been hanging on. A few years before that, Tim noticed with chagrin that someone had stolen his bike seat and replaced it with a lesser model. This seat tips up and down and is generally a pain in the ass. I have suggested that he go buy himself a proper seat at least once a year for the last eight years. “Eh…it’s fine,” he says. “Now it’s rusted in place!”

But, this past August, the axle broke. The Jamis is currently unrideable. Fortunately, Hubway exists, and it is right in line with Tim’s sensibilities. It’s a bike-sharing program with bike stations all over the greater Boston area. There are annual and monthly memberships, or you can get a 24 or 72 hour pass — you swipe your credit card at the Hubway kiosk and you can ride as many times as you want within the time-frame you select. You just can’t go over 30 minutes a ride.

The day before I wrote Smoot Bridge, I got the urge to ride my bike over there. I used to ride across the bridge every day, but it had been years and I wanted to recapture the feeling. For a tense moment, we thought I would have to do this alone…the Jamis’s axle is broken, after all. But then we remembered Hubway. Tim decided to do the 24 hour pass. If he could switch bikes in under 30 minutes, he could get away with paying only $6. Challenge accepted.

We walked from our house to the Tufts Hubway station and grabbed the first bike. Being the first one, this transaction took the longest. We rode from Tufts, down to Mass Ave, and through Harvard Square. We heard the noontime bells ringing, and Tim realized he only had 7 minutes to return his first bicycle. I was totally oblivious to this. He charged up Mount Auburn and Mass Ave, on the lookout for any sign of Hubway. He found a station at the Central Square Post Office, with only a couple minutes to spare.

He had a little trouble with this one, because the original 30 minutes wasn’t up yet. For a second, he thought he’d misread the website and he’d be stuck bikeless in Central Square. Once the 30th minute arrived, he tried again and was immediately given his next bike. He figures either the time was an issue, or the kiosk needs a couple of minutes to recognize that the bike is back. (here’s a word from Hubway about what happened.)

We kept riding down Mass Ave, across the Smoot Bridge, where I stopped to take some pictures for the blog. Tim didn’t say anything, but he knew the pictures were going to make it difficult to get to another Hubway station in time. He thought he could make it once we got going across the bridge, but, as he rode out to the patch of Esplanade across from the Lagoon, he realized that I had disappeared.

In fact, I had stopped as soon as I got down to the Esplanade from the bridge. The sailboats were looking perfect and I wanted a picture. I tried to call after him, but he was way out of earshot. Once we met back up, everything was swell until, on the foot bridge at Mass General, Tim realized he had 2 minutes to find a Hubway station. I was in mid-sentence when he realized this. “Time’s almost up! Gotta go! Gotta go!”

Tim’s Hubway Adventure was truly excellent. He may try it again some time, but he wishes we had a station closer to our house. We both feel lucky to live somewhere with a service like this, but we both love our own bikes. I asked him what he wanted to to do about his, fully expecting that at long last he would agree to replace it with a new bike. I don’t know what I was thinking. The Jamis isn’t going anywhere.

–Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

Hubway Adventure Route!

Tim on a bike path in Wales, holding bikes that look exactly like ours…yet which are not.

Smoot Bridge

CAMBRIDGE AND BOSTON

It stretches across the Charles River, between the MIT section of Memorial Drive and Beacon Street in Back Bay. A steel haunched girder bridge, its design is less ostentatious than the Zakim and less stately than the Longfellow. Still, it is sleek and purposeful as it crosses the longest distance of any Charles River bridge. It is 659.82 meters, or 2,164.8 feet, or 364.4 smoots long. Plus or minus one ear.

Smoot tells his story in The Journal of the Institute for Hacks, Tomfoolery & Pranks at MIT

The non-standard unit of measure known as “the smoot” is equal to five feet and seven inches, or about 1.70 meters. This was the length — or, I should say, height — of one Oliver Smoot in October, 1958. This Smoot was a pledge that year for the MIT chapter of Lambda Chi Alpha. Having become frustrated with the seemingly endless trek across the bridge, his pledgemaster declared that the bridge should be measured and demarcated in pledge-lengths. Oliver Smoot was chosen both for his diminutive stature and for the sound of his name: “the name sounded ‘scientific,’ like ‘meter’ or ‘watt,'” reports MIT Newsoffice Editor, Susan Curran in her salute to Smoot.

And lo, Oliver Smoot was laid down “end over end,” and the long walk from Boston to MIT was measured. Ever since, for over fifty years, the pledges of MIT’s Lambda Chi Alpha chapter repaint. Over the years, the smoots became such a fixture in the culture of Boston and Cambridge that when the superstructure of the bridge was renovated in the 1980s, the Cambridge Police department asked the fraternity to come and repaint the markers. You see, smoots had become useful in reporting the precise location of accidents. During renovations, officials even agreed to “score the sidewalk at 5-foot-7 Smoot intervals instead of the usual six-foot ones.” I have to look for that, next time I walk across.

the total distance, recently repainted; also, note the scoring of the concrete.

Plus or minus an ear. If you look at the total-distance marker now, it only says “+ 1 EAR,” but according to Robert Tavener, in his Smoot’s Ear: The Measure of Humanity (Yale University Press, 2007), the original measure of “plus or minus” signifies the MIT frat’s choice to build-in error, to express the uncertainty of measurement, and to recognize the fallibility “ever-present in human affairs” (xvi). This care for precision through recognition of uncertainty embodies something so important about science — the findings of each new study don’t increase certainty, but rather they open up new questions, new avenues in the pursuit of truth.

I’m no scientist, but I’ve dedicated the better part of my life to asking questions and looking for the many forms truth. Multiplicity, uncertainty and the slipperiness of meaning are some of my favorite things to think about. But a head full of things like that can soon feel far too full. Over the last 10 years, I’ve found respite from thinking and feeling too much on the long, straight stretch of bridge across the Charles.

For five years, when I lived near the Somerville-Cambridge line, I’d ride my blue-green Raleigh to work. I’d ride down the bike lane on Hampshire Street, along the Vassar Street path (past Frank Gehry’s Stata Center), down Mass Ave, across the Smoot Bridge, into the rush of Back Bay traffic, and over to Northeastern University to teach writing and work on my Ph.D. In graduate school, a lot feels uncertain, a lot of the time. On top of that, I was settling into a new marriage and trying to forgive my parents for being fallible human beings. When describing the dark brown muck of my worldview to my therapist one day, I realized that the only relief I felt from an otherwise constant state of anxious depression came to me as I rode my bike across the Smoot Bridge. I have since expanded my Smoot Bridge feeling; the dark brown muck has receded.

Over the river, the world opens up; the blue of the sky, the smell of the water, the sun, the sailboats, the quiet. Riding or walking, I often shift into automaticity, fading into and out of awareness of my movements. Nice and long, on the bridge you can forget yourself, then remember again, and maybe, once across, see things a little differently than you did on the other side.

–Rebecca Thorndike-Breeze

featured photo: friend and colleague Lana Cook’s “Sunset of Yarn.” A good walk to work.

PS: In 2011, “smoot” was added to the fifth edition of the American Heritage Dictionary.

Also, check out this Panorama from the bridge in winter, at Wikimedia Commons.